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in anything; and waited to be questioned before he spoke at all。 He

seemed actually stupid to the countess; whose coquettish little ways

missed their mark in presence of such frigid gravity and conventional

respect。 In vain Adam kept saying: 〃Do be lively; Thaddeus; one would

really suppose you were not at home。 You must have made a wager to

disconcert Clementine。〃 Thaddeus continued heavy and half asleep。 When

the servants left the room at the end of the dessert the captain

explained that his habits were diametrically opposite to those of

society;he went to bed at eight o'clock and got up very early in the

morning; and he excused his dulness on the ground of being sleepy。



〃My intention in taking you to the Opera was to amuse you; captain;

but do as you prefer;〃 said Clementine; rather piqued。



〃I will go;〃 said Paz。



〃Duprez sings 'Guillaume Tell;'〃 remarked Adam。 〃But perhaps you would

rather go to the 'Varietes'?〃



The captain smiled and rang the bell。 〃Tell Constantin;〃 he said to

the footman; 〃to put the horses to the carriage instead of the coupe。

We should be rather squeezed otherwise;〃 he said to the count。



〃A Frenchman would have forgotten that;〃 remarked Clementine; smiling。



〃Ah! but we are Florentines transplanted to the North;〃 answered

Thaddeus with a refinement of accent and a look in his eyes which made

his conduct at table seem assumed for the occasion。 There was too

evident a contrast between his involuntary self…revelation in this

speech and his behavior during dinner。 Clementine examined the captain

with a few of those covert glances which show a woman's surprise and

also her capacity for observation。



It resulted from this little incident that silence reigned in the

salon while the three took their coffee; a silence rather annoying to

Adam; who was incapable of imagining the cause of it。 Clementine no

longer tried to draw out Thaddeus。 The captain; on the other hand;

retreated within his military stiffness and came out of it no more;

neither on the way to the Opera nor in the box; where he seemed to be

asleep。



〃You see; madame; that I am a very stupid man;〃 he said during the

dance in the last act of 〃Guillaume Tell。〃 〃Am I not right to keep; as

the saying is; to my own specialty?〃



〃In truth; my dear captain; you are neither a talker nor a man of the

world; but you are perhaps Polish。〃



〃Therefore leave me to look after your pleasures; your property; your

householdit is all I am good for。〃



〃Tartufe! pooh!〃 cried Adam; laughing。 〃My dear; he is full of ardor;

he is thoroughly educated; he can; if he chooses; hold his own in any

salon。 Clementine; don't believe his modesty。〃



〃Adieu; comtesse; I have obeyed your wishes so far; and now I will

take the carriage and go home to bed and send it back for you。〃



Clementine bowed her head and let him go without replying。



〃What a bear!〃 she said to the count。 〃You are a great deal nicer。〃



Adam pressed her hand when no one was looking。



〃Poor; dear Thaddeus;〃 he said; 〃he is trying to make himself

disagreeable where most men would try to seem more amiable than I。〃



〃Oh!〃 she said; 〃I am not sure but what there is some CALCULATION in

his behavior; he would have taken in an ordinary woman。〃



Half an hour later; when the chasseur; Boleslas; called out 〃Gate!〃

and the carriage was waiting for it to swing back; Clementine said to

her husband; 〃Where does the captain perch?〃



〃Why; there!〃 replied Adam; pointing to a floor above the porte…

cochere which had one window looking on the street。 〃His apartments

are over the coachhouse。〃



〃Who lives on the other side?〃 asked the countess。



〃No one as yet;〃 said Adam; 〃I mean that apartment for our children

and their instructors。〃



〃He didn't go to bed;〃 said the countess; observing lights in

Thaddeus's rooms when the carriage had passed under the portico

supported by columns copied from those of the Tuileries; which

replaced a vulgar zinc awning painted in stripes like cloth。



The captain; in his dressing…gown with a pipe in his mouth; was

watching Clementine as she entered the vestibule。 The day had been a

hard one for him。 And here is the reason why: A great and terrible

emotion had taken possession of his heart on the day when Adam made

him go to the Opera to see and give his opinion on Mademoiselle du

Rouvre; and again when he saw her on the occasion of her marriage; and

recognized in her the woman whom a man is forced to love exclusively。

For this reason Paz strongly advised and promoted the long journey to

Italy and elsewhere after the marriage。 At peace so long as Clementine

was away; his trial was renewed on the return of the happy household。

As he sat at his window on this memorable night; smoking his latakia

in a pipe of wild…cherry wood six feet long; given to him by Adam;

these are the thoughts that were passing through his mind:



〃I; and God; who will reward me for suffering in silence; alone know

how I love her! But how shall I manage to have neither her love nor

her dislike?〃



And his thoughts travelled far on this strange theme。



It must not be supposed that Thaddeus was living without pleasure; in

the midst of his sufferings。 The deceptions of this day; for instance;

were a source of inward joy to him。 Since the return of the count and

countess he had daily felt ineffable satisfactions in knowing himself

necessary to a household which; without his devotion to its interests;

would infallibly have gone to ruin。 What fortune can bear the strain

of reckless prodigality? Clementine; brought up by a spendthrift

father; knew nothing of the management of a household which the women

of the present day; however rich or noble they are; are often

compelled to undertake themselves。 How few; in these days; keep a

steward。 Adam; on the other hand; son of one of the great Polish lords

who let themselves be preyed on by the Jews; and are wholly incapable

of managing even the wreck of their vast fortunes (for fortunes are

vast in Poland); was not of a nature to check his own fancies or those

of his wife。 Left to himself he would probably have been ruined before

his marriage。 Paz had prevented him from gambling at the Bourse; and

that says all。



Under these circumstances; Thaddeus; feeling that he loved Clementine

in spite of himself; had not the resource of leaving the house and

travelling in other lands to forget his passion。 Gratitude; the key…

note of his life; held him bound to that household where he alone

could look after the affairs of the heedless owners。 The long absence

of Adam and Clementine had given him peace。 But the countess had

returned more lovely than ever; enjoying the freedom which marriage

brings to a Parisian woman; displaying the graces of a young wife and

the nameless attraction she gains from the happiness; or the

independence; bestowed upon her by a young man as trustful; as

chivalric; and as much in love as Adam。 To know that he was the pivot

on which the splendor the household depended; to see Clementine when

she got out of her carriage on returning from some fete; or got into

it in the morning when she took her drive; to meet her on the

boulevards in her pretty equipage; looking like a flower in a whorl of

leaves; inspired poor Thaddeus with mysterious delights; which glowed

in the depths of his heart but gave no signs upon his face。



How happened it that for five whole months the countess had never

perceived the captain? Because he hid himself from her knowledge; and

carefully concealed the pains he took to avoid her。 Nothing so

resembles the Divine love as hopeless human love。 A man must have

great depth of heart to devote himself in silence and obscurity to a

woman。 In such a heart is the worship of love for love's sake only

sublime avarice; sublime because ever generous and founded on the

mysterious existence of the principles of creation。 EFFECT is nature;

and nature is enchanting; it belongs to man; to the poet; the painter;

the lover。 But CAUSE; to a few privileged souls and to certain mighty

thinkers; is superior to nature。 Cause is God。 In the sphere of causes

live the Newtons and all such thinkers as Laplace; Kepler; Descartes;

Malebranche; Spinoza; Buffon; also the true poets and solitarys of the

second Christian century; and the Saint Teresas of Spain; and such

sublime ecstatics。 All human sentiments bear analogy to these

conditions whenever the mind abandons Effect for Cause。 Thaddeus had

reached this height; at which all things change their relative aspect。

Filled with the joys unutterable of a creator he had attained in his

love to all that genius has revealed to us of grandeur。



〃No;〃 he was thinking to himself as he watched the curling smoke of

his pipe; 〃she was not entirely deceived。 She might break up my

friendship with Adam if she took a dislike to me; but if she coquetted

with me to amuse herself; what would become of me?〃



The conceit of this last supposition was so foreign to the modest

nature and Teutonic timidity of the captain that he scolded himself

for admitting it; and went to bed; resolved to await events before

deciding on a course。



The next day Clementine breakfasted very contentedly without Paz; and

without even noticing his disobedience to her orders。 It happened to

be her reception day; when the house was thrown open with a splendor

that was semi…royal。 She paid no attention to the absence of Comte

Paz; on whom all the burden of these parade days fell。



〃Good!〃 thought he; as he heard the last carriages driving away at two

in the morning; 〃it was only the caprice or the curiosity of a

Parisian woman that made her want to see me。〃



After that the captain went back to his ordinary habits and ways;

which had been somewhat upset by this incident。 Diverted by her

Parisian occupations; Clementine appeared to have forgotten Paz。 It
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