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no　one　can　see　farther　than　the　end　of　their　nose；　no　one　gives　a　thought　to　the　fact　that　the　british　are　fighting　for　their　own　country　and　their　own　people；　everyone　thinks　its　englands　duty　to　save　holland；　as　quickly　as　possible。　what　obligations　do　the　english　have　toward　us？　what　have　the　dutch　done　to　deserve　the　generous　help　they　so　clearly　expect？　oh　no；　the　dutch　are　very　much　mistaken。　the　english；　despite　their　bluff；　are　certainly　no　more　to　blame　for　the　war　than　all　the　other　countries；　large　and　small；　that　are　now　occupied　by　the　germans。　the　british　are　not　about　to　offer　their　excuses；　true；　they　were　sleeping　during　the　years　germany　was　rearming　itself；　but　all　the　other　countries；　especially　those　bordering　on　germany；　were　asleep　too。　england　and　the　rest　of　the　world　have　discovered　that　burying　your　head　in　the　sand　doesnt　work；　and　now　each　of　them；　especially　england；　is　having　to　pay　a　heavy　price　for　its　ostrich　policy。

no　country　sacrifices　its　men　without　reason；　and　certainly　not　in　the　interests　of　another；　and　england　is　no　exception。　the　invasion；　liberation　and　freedom　will　e　someday；　yet　england；　not　the　occupied　territories；　will　choose　the　moment。

to　our　great　sorrow　and　dismay；　weve　heard　that　many　people　have　changed　their　attitude　toward　us　jews。　weve　been　told　that　anti…semitism　has　cropped　up　in　circles　where　once　it　would　have　been　unthinkable。　this　fact　has　affected　us　all　very；　very　deeply。　the　reason　for　the　hatred　is　understandable；　maybe　even　human；　but　that　doesnt　make　it　right。　according　to　the　christians；　the　jews　are　blabbing　their　secrets　to　the　germans；　denouncing　their　helpers　and　causing　them　to　suffer　the　dreadful　fate　and　punishments　that　have　already　been　meted　out　to　so　many。　all　of　this　is　true。　but　as　with　everything；　they　should　look　at　the　matter　from　both　sides：　would　christians　act　any　differently　if　they　were　in　our　place？　could　anyone；　regardless　of　whether　theyre　jews　or　christians；　remain　silent　in　the　face　of　german　pressure？　everyone　knows　its　practically　impossible；　so　why　do　they　ask　the　impossible　of　the　jews？

its　being　said　in　underground　circles　that　the　german　jews　who　immigrated　to　holland　before　the　war　and　have　now　been　sent　to　poland　shouldnt　be　allowed　to　return　here。

they　were　granted　the　right　to　asylum　in　holland；　but　once　hitler　is　gone；　they　should　go　back　to　germany。

when　you　hear　that；　you　begin　to　wonder　why　were　fighting　this　long　and　difficult　war。　were　always　being　told　that　were　fighting　for　freedom；　truth　and　justice！　the

war　isnt　even　over；　and　already　theres　dissension　and　jews　are　regarded　as　lesser　beings。　oh；　its　sad；　very　sad　that　the　old　adage　has　been　confirmed　for　the　umpteenth　time：　〃what　one　christian　does　is　his　own　responsibthty；　what　one　jew　does　reflects　on　all　jews。鈥�

to　be　honest；　i　cant　understand　how　the　dutch；　a　nation　of　good；　honest；　upright　people；　can　sit　in　judgment　on　us　the　way　they　do。　on　us…the　most　oppressed；　unfortunate　and　pitiable　people　in　all　the　world。

i　have　only　one　hope：　that　this　anti…semitism　is　just　a　passing　thing；　that　the　dutch　will　show　their　true　colors；　that　theyll　never　waver　from　what　they　know　in　their　hearts　to　be　just；　for　this　is　unjust！

and　if　they　ever　carry　out　this　terrible　threat；　the　meager　handful　of　jews　still　left　in　holland　will　have　to　go。　we　too　will　have　to　shoulder　our　bundles　and　move　on；　away　from　this　beautiful　country；　which　once　so　kindly　took　us　in　and　now　turns　its　back　on　us。

i　love　holland。　once　i　hoped　it　would　bee　a　fatherland　to　me；　since　i　had　lost　my　own。　and　i　hope　so　still！

yours；　anne　

m。　frank

thursday；　may　25；　1944

dearest　kitty；

beps　engaged！　the　news　isnt　much　of　a　surprise；　though　none　of　us　are　particularly　pleased。　bertus　may　be　a　nice；　steady；　athletic　young　man；　but　bep　doesnt　love　him；　and　to　me　thats　enough　reason　to　advise　her　against　marrying　him。

beps　trying　to　get　ahead　in　the　world；　and　bertus　is　pulling　her　back；　hes　a　laborer；　without　any　interests　or　any　desire　to　make　something　of　himself；　and　i　dont　think　thatll　make　bep　happy。　i　can　understand　beps　wanting　to　put　an　end　to　her　indecision；　four　weeks　ago　she　decided　to　write　him　off；　but　then　she　felt　even　worse。

so　she　wrote　him　a　letter；　and　now　shes　engaged。

there　are　several　factors　involved　in　this　engagement。　first；　beps　sick　father；　who　likes　bertus　very　much。　second；　shes　the　oldest　of　the　voskuijl　girls　and　her　mother　teases　her　about　being　an　old　maid。　third；　shes　just　turned　twenty…four；　and　that　matters　a　great　deal　to　bep。

mother　said　it　would　have　been　better　if　bep　had　simply　had　an　affair　with　bertus。　i　dont　know；　i　feel　sorry　for　bep　and　can　understand　her　loneliness。　in　any　case；　they　can　get　married　only　after　the　war；　since　bertus　is　in　hiding；　or　at　any　rate　has　gone　underground。　besides；　they　dont　have　a　penny　to　their　name　and　nothing　in　the　way　of　a　hope　chest。　what　a　sorry　prospect　for　bep；　for　whom　we　all　wish　the　best。　i　only　hope　bertus　improves　under　her　influence；　or　that　bep　finds　another　man；　one　who　knows　how　to　appreciate　her！

yours；　anne　

m。　frank

the　same　day　theres　something　happening　every　day。　this　morning　mr。　van　hoeven　was　arrested。

he　was　hiding　two　jews　in　his　house。　its　a　heavy　blow　for　us；　not　only　because　those　poor　jews　are　once　again　balancing　on　the　edge　of　an　abyss；　but　also　because　its　terrible　for　mr。　van　hoeven。

the　worlds　been　turned　upside　down。　the　most　decent　people　are　being　sent　to　concentration　camps；　prisons　and　lonely　cells；　while　the　lowest　of　the　low　rule　over　young　and　old；　rich　and　poor。　one　gets　caught　for　black　marketeering；　another　for　hiding　jews　or　other　un…　fortunate　souls。　unless　youre　a　nazi；　you　dont　know　whats　going　to　happen　to　you　from　one　day　to　the　next。

mr。　van　hoeven　is　a　great　loss　to　us　too。　bep　cant　possibly　lug　such　huge　amounts　of　potatoes　all　the　way　here；　nor　should　she　have　to；　so　our　only　choice　is　to　eat　fewer　of　them。　ill　tell　you　what　we　have　in　mind；　but　its　certainly　not　going　to　make　life　here　any　more　agreeable。　mother　says　well　skip　breakfast；　eat　hot　cereal　and　bread　for　lunch　and　fried　potatoes　for　dinner　and；　if　possible；　vegetables　or　lettuce　once　or　twice　a　week。　thats　all　there　is。　were　going　to　be　hungry；　but　nothings　worse　than　being　caught。

yours；　anne　

m。　frank

friday；　may　26；　1944

my　dearest　kitty；

at　long；　long　last；　i　can　sit　quietly　at　my　table　before　the　crack　in　the　window　frame　and　write　you　everything；　everything　i　want　to　say。

i　feel　more　miserable　than　i　have　in　months。　even　after　the　break…in　i　didnt　feel　so　utterly　broken；　inside　and　out。　on　the　one　hand；　theres　the　news　about　mr。　van　hoeven；　the　jewish　question　（which　is　discussed　in　detail　by　everyone　in　the　house）；　the　invasion　（which　is　so　long　in　ing）；　the　awful　food；　the　tension；　the　misera…　ble　atmosphere；　my　disappointment　in　peter。　on　the　other　hand；　theres　beps　engagement；　the　pentecost　reception；　the　flowers；　mr。　kuglers　birthday；　cakes　and　stories　about　cabarets；　movies　and　concerts。　that　gap；　that　enormous　gap；　is　always　there。　one　day　were　laugh…　ing　at　the　ical　side　of　life　in　hiding；　and　the　next　day　（and　there　are　many　such　days）；　were　frightened；　and　the　fear；　tension　and　despair　can　be　read　on　our　faces。

miep　and　mr。　kugler　bear　the　greatest　burden　for　us；　and　for　all　those　in　hiding…miep　in　everything　she　does　and　mr。　kugler　through　his　enormous　responsibthty　for　the　eight　of　us；　which　is　sometimes　so　overwhelming　that　he　can　hardly　speak　from　the　pent…up　tension　and　strain。　mr。　kleiman　and　bep　also　take　very　good　care　of　us；　but　theyre　able　to　put　the　annex　out　of　their　minds；　even　if　its　only　for　a　few　hours　or　a　few　days。　they　have　their　own　worries；　mr。　kleiman　with　his　health　and　bep　with　her　engagement；　which　isnt　looking　very　promising　lat　the　moment。　but　they　also　have　their　outings；　their　visits　with　friends；　their　everyday　lives　as　ordinary　people；　so　that　the　tension　is　sometimes　relieved；　if　only　for　a　short　while；　while　ours　never　is；　never　has　been；　not　once　in　the　two　years　weve　been　here。　how　much　longer　will　this　increasingly　oppressive；　unbearable　weight　press　i　down　on　us？

the　drains　are　clogged　again。　we　cant　run　the　wa…　ter；　or　if　we　do；　only　a　trickle；

we　cant　flush　the　toilet；　so　we　have　to　use　a　toilet　brush；　and　weve　been　putting　our　dirty　water　into　a　big　earthenware　jar。　we　can　man…　age　for　today；　but　what　will　happen　if　the　plumber　cant　fix　it　on　his　own？　the　sanitation　department　cant　e　until　tuesday。

miep　sent　us　a　raisin　bread　with　〃happy　pentecost〃　written　on　top。　its　almost　as　if　she　were　mocking　us；　since　our　moods　and　cares　are　far　from　〃happy。鈥�

weve　all　bee　more　frightened　since　the　van　hoeven　business。　once　again　you　hear　〃shh〃　from　all　i　sides；　and　were　doing　everything　more　quietly。　the　police　forced　the　door　there；　they　could　just　as　easily　do　that　here　too！　what　will　we　do　if　were　ever。

。　。　no；　i　mustnt　write　that　down。　but　the　question　wont　let　itself　be　pushed　to　the　back　of　my　mind　today；　on　the　contrary；　all　the　fear　ive　ever　felt　is　looming　before　me　in　all　its　horror。

i　had　to　go　downstairs　alone　at　eight　this　evening　to　use　the　bathroom。　there　was　no　one　down　there；　since　they　were　all　listening　to　the　radio。　i　wanted　to　be　brave；　but　it

was　hard。　i　always　feel　safer　upstairs　than　in　that　huge；　silent　house；　when　im　alone　with　those　mysterious　muffied　sounds　from　upstairs　and　the　honking　of　horns　in　the　street；　i　have　to　hurry　and　remind　myself　where　i　am　to　keep　from　getting　the　shivers。

miep　has　been　acting　much　nicer　toward　us　since　her　talk　with　father。　but　i　havent　told　you　about　that　yet。　miep　came　up　one　afternoon　all　flushed　and　asked　father　straight　out　if　we　thought　they　too　were　infected　with　the　current　anti…semitism。

father　was　stunned　and　quickly　talked　her　out　of　the　idea；　but　some　of　mieps　suspicion　has　lingered　on。　theyre　doing　more　errands　for　us　now　and　showing　more　of　an　interest　in　our　troubles；　though　we　certainly　shouldnt　bother　them　with　our　woes。　oh；　theyre　such　good；　noble　people！

ive　asked　myself　again　and　again　whether　it　wouldnt　have　been　better　if　we　hadnt　gone　into　hiding；　if　we　were　dead　now　and