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is a rigid guard of ethical abnegations and professional priests;



but inside that inhuman guard you will find the old human life



dancing like children; and drinking wine like men; for Christianity



is the only frame for pagan freedom。  But in the modern philosophy



the case is opposite; it is its outer ring that is obviously



artistic and emancipated; its despair is within。







     And its despair is this; that it does not really believe



that there is any meaning in the universe; therefore it cannot



hope to find any romance; its romances will have no plots。  A man



cannot expect any adventures in the land of anarchy。  But a man can



expect any number of adventures if he goes travelling in the land



of authority。  One can find no meanings in a jungle of scepticism;



but the man will find more and more meanings who walks through



a forest of doctrine and design。  Here everything has a story tied



to its tail; like the tools or pictures in my father's house;



for it is my father's house。  I end where I beganat the right end。 



I have entered at last the gate of all good philosophy。  I have come



into my second childhood。







     But this larger and more adventurous Christian universe has



one final mark difficult to express; yet as a conclusion of the whole



matter I will attempt to express it。  All the real argument about



religion turns on the question of whether a man who was born upside



down can tell when he comes right way up。  The primary paradox of



Christianity is that the ordinary condition of man is not his sane



or sensible condition; that the normal itself is an abnormality。 



That is the inmost philosophy of the Fall。  In Sir Oliver Lodge's



interesting new Catechism; the first two questions were: 



〃What are you?〃 and 〃What; then; is the meaning of the Fall of Man?〃 



I remember amusing myself by writing my own answers to the questions;



but I soon found that they were very broken and agnostic answers。 



To the question; 〃What are you?〃  I could only answer; 〃God knows。〃 



And to the question; 〃What is meant by the Fall?〃  I could answer



with complete sincerity; 〃That whatever I am; I am not myself。〃 



This is the prime paradox of our religion; something that we have



never in any full sense known; is not only better than ourselves;



but even more natural to us than ourselves。  And there is really



no test of this except the merely experimental one with which these



pages began; the test of the padded cell and the open door。  It is only



since I have known orthodoxy that I have known mental emancipation。 



But; in conclusion; it has one special application to the ultimate idea



of joy。







     It is said that Paganism is a religion of joy and Christianity



of sorrow; it would be just as easy to prove that Paganism is pure



sorrow and Christianity pure joy。  Such conflicts mean nothing and



lead nowhere。  Everything human must have in it both joy and sorrow;



the only matter of interest is the manner in which the two things



are balanced or divided。  And the really interesting thing is this;



that the pagan was (in the main) happier and happier as he approached



the earth; but sadder and sadder as he approached the heavens。 



The gaiety of the best Paganism; as in the playfulness of Catullus



or Theocritus; is; indeed; an eternal gaiety never to be forgotten



by a grateful humanity。  But it is all a gaiety about the facts of life;



not about its origin。  To the pagan the small things are as sweet



as the small brooks breaking out of the mountain; but the broad things



are as bitter as the sea。  When the pagan looks at the very core of the



cosmos he is struck cold。  Behind the gods; who are merely despotic;



sit the fates; who are deadly。  Nay; the fates are worse than deadly;



they are dead。  And when rationalists say that the ancient world



was more enlightened than the Christian; from their point of view



they are right。  For when they say 〃enlightened〃 they mean darkened



with incurable despair。  It is profoundly true that the ancient world



was more modern than the Christian。  The common bond is in the fact



that ancients and moderns have both been miserable about existence;



about everything; while mediaevals were happy about that at least。 



I freely grant that the pagans; like the moderns; were only miserable



about everythingthey were quite jolly about everything else。 



I concede that the Christians of the Middle Ages were only at



peace about everythingthey were at war about everything else。 



But if the question turn on the primary pivot of the cosmos;



then there was more cosmic contentment in the narrow and bloody



streets of Florence than in the theatre of Athens or the open garden



of Epicurus。  Giotto lived in a gloomier town than Euripides;



but he lived in a gayer universe。







     The mass of men have been forced to be gay about the little things;



but sad about the big ones。  Nevertheless (I offer my last dogma



defiantly) it is not native to man to be so。  Man is more himself;



man is more manlike; when joy is the fundamental thing in him;



and grief the superficial。  Melancholy should be an innocent interlude;



a tender and fugitive frame of mind; praise should be the permanent



pulsation of the soul。  Pessimism is at best an emotional half…holiday;



joy is the uproarious labour by which all things live。  Yet; according to



the apparent estate of man as seen by the pagan or the agnostic;



this primary need of human nature can never be fulfilled。 



Joy ought to be expansive; but for the agnostic it must be contracted;



it must cling to one corner of the world。  Grief ought to be



a concentration; but for the agnostic its desolation is spread



through an unthinkable eternity。  This is what I call being born



upside down。  The sceptic may truly be said to be topsy…turvy;



for his feet are dancing upwards in idle ecstasies; while his brain



is in the abyss。  To the modern man the heavens are actually below



the earth。  The explanation is simple; he is standing on his head;



which is a very weak pedestal to stand on。  But when he has found



his feet again he knows it。  Christianity satisfies suddenly



and perfectly man's ancestral instinct for being the right way up;



satisfies it supremely in this; that by its creed joy becomes



something gigantic and sadness something special and small。 



The vault above us is not deaf because the universe is an idiot;



the silence is not the heartless silence of an endless and aimless world。 



Rather the silence around us is a small and pitiful stillness like



the prompt stillness in a sick…room。 We are perhaps permitted tragedy



as a sort of merciful comedy:  because the frantic energy of divine



things would knock us down like a drunken farce。  We can take our



own tears more lightly than we could take the tremendous levities



of the angels。  So we sit perhaps in a starry chamber of silence;



while the laughter of the heavens is too loud for us to hear。







     Joy; which was the small publicity of the pagan; is the gigantic



secret of the Christian。  And as I close this chaotic volume I open



again the strange small book from which all Christianity came; and I



am again haunted by a kind of confirmation。  The tremendous figure



which fills the Gospels towers in this respect; as in every other;



above all the thinkers who ever thought themselves tall。  His pathos



was natural; almost casual。  The Stoics; ancient and modern;



were proud of concealing their tears。  He never concealed His tears;



He showed them plainly on His open face at any daily sight; such as



the far sight of His native city。  Yet He concealed something。 



Solemn supermen and imperial diplomatists are proud of restraining



their anger。  He never restrained His anger。  He flung furniture



down the front steps of the Temple; and asked men how they expected



to escape the damnation of Hell。  Yet He restrained something。 



I say it with reverence; there was in that shattering personality



a thread that must be called shyness。  There was something that He hid



from all men when He went up a mountain to pray。  There was something



that He covered constantly by abrupt silence or impetuous isolation。 



There was some one thing that was too great for God to show us when



He walked upon our earth; and I have sometimes fancied that it was



His mirth。











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