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camille (la dame aux camilias)(卡米勒)-第6部分

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something; for if I put aside the least thing for you; they might accuse you 

of embezzling seized goods。 

     〃It is a sad life that I am leaving! 

     〃It   would    be  good    of  God    to  let  me   see   you   again   before    I  die。 

According to all probability; good…bye; my friend。 Pardon me if I do not 

write a longer letter; but those who say they are going to cure me wear me 

out with bloodletting; and my hand refuses to write any more。 

         〃MARGUERITE GAUTIER。〃 

     The    last  two   words    were    scarcely   legible。    I  returned   the  letter  to 

Armand; who had; no doubt; read it over again in his mind while I  was 



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reading it on paper; for he said to me as he took it: 

     〃Who would think that a kept woman could have written that?〃 And; 

overcome by recollections;   he gazed for   some time at   the writing of the 

letter; which he finally carried to his lips。 

     〃And when I think;〃 he went on; 〃that she died before I could see her; 

and that I shall never see her again; when I think that she did for me what 

no sister would ever have done; I can not forgive myself for having left her 

to die like that。 Dead! Dead and thinking of me; writing and repeating my 

name; poor dear Marguerite!〃 

     And Armand; giving free outlet to his thoughts and his tears; held out 

his hand to me; and continued: 

     〃People would think it childish enough if they saw me lament like this 

over a dead woman such as she; no one will ever know what I made that 

woman suffer; how cruel I have been to her! how good; how resigned she 

was! I thought it was I who had to forgive her; and to…day I feel unworthy 

of the forgiveness which she grants me。 Oh; I would give ten years of my 

life to weep at her feet for an hour!〃 

     It is always difficult to console a sorrow that is unknown to one; and 

nevertheless I felt so lively a sympathy for the young man; he made me so 

frankly the confidant of his distress; that I believed a word from me would 

not be indifferent to him; and I said: 

     〃Have you no parents; no friends? Hope。 Go and see them; they will 

console you。 As for me; I can only pity you。〃 

     〃It is true;〃 he said; rising and walking to and fro in the room; 〃I am 

wearying   you。   Pardon   me;   I   did   not   reflect   how   little   my   sorrow   must 

mean to you; and that I am intruding upon you something which can not 

and ought not to interest you at all。〃 

     〃You mistake my meaning。 I am entirely at your service; only I regret 

my inability to calm your distress。 If my society and that of my friends can 

give you any distraction; if; in short; you have need of me; no matter in 

what way; I hope you will realize how much pleasure it will give me to do 

anything for you。〃 

     〃Pardon;   pardon;〃   said   he;   〃sorrow   sharpens   the   sensations。   Let   me 

stay here for a few minutes longer; long enough to dry my eyes; so that the 



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idlers in the street may not look upon it as a curiosity to see a big fellow 

like me crying。 You have made me very happy by giving me this book。 I 

do not know how I can ever express my gratitude to you。〃 

     〃By giving me a little of your friendship;〃 said I; 〃and by telling me 

the   cause    of  your   suffering。   One    feels  better  while    telling  what   one 

suffers。〃 

     〃You   are   right。   But   to…day  I   have   too   much   need   of   tears;   I   can   not 

very well talk。 One day I will tell you the whole story; and you will see if I 

have reason for regretting the poor girl。 And now;〃 he added; rubbing his 

eyes for the last time; and looking at himself in the glass; 〃say that you do 

not think me too absolutely idiotic; and allow me to come back and see 

you another time。〃 

     He cast on me a gentle and amiable look。 I was near embracing him。 

As for him; his eyes again began to fill with tears; he saw that I perceived 

it and turned away his head。 

     〃Come;〃 I said; 〃courage。〃 

     〃Good…bye;〃 he said。 

     And; making a desperate effort to restrain his tears; he rushed rather 

than went out of the room。 

     I lifted the curtain of my window; and saw him get into the cabriolet 

which awaited him at the door; but scarcely was he seated before he burst 

into tears and hid his face in his pocket…handkerchief。 



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                               CHAPTER 5 



    A good while elapsed before I heard anything more of Armand; but; on 

the other hand; I was constantly hearing of Marguerite。 

    I do not know if you have noticed; if once the name of anybody who 

might in the natural course of things have always remained unknown; or at 

all events indifferent to you; should he mentioned before you; immediately 

details begin to group themselves about the name; and you find all your 

friends talking to you about something which they have never mentioned 

to you before。 You discover that this person was almost touching you and 

has passed close to you many times in your life without your noticing it; 

you find coincidences in the events which are told you; a real affinity with 

certain events of your own existence。 I was not absolutely at that point in 

regard to Marguerite; for I had seen and met her; I knew her by sight and 

by reputation; nevertheless; since the moment of the sale; her name came 

to   my   ears   so   frequently;   and;   owing   to   the   circumstance   that   I   have 

mentioned in the last chapter; that name was associated with so profound a 

sorrow; that   my  curiosity  increased in   proportion   with   my  astonishment。 

The consequence   was that   whenever I   met   friends to   whom I   had   never 

breathed the name of Marguerite; I always began by saying: 

     〃Did you ever know a certain Marguerite Gautier?〃 

     〃The Lady of the Camellias?〃 

     〃Exactly。〃 

     〃Oh; very well!〃 

    The word was sometimes accompanied by a smile which could leave 

no doubt as to its meaning。 

     〃Well; what sort of a girl was she?〃 

     〃A good sort of girl。〃 

     〃Is that all?〃 

     〃Oh; yes; more intelligence and perhaps a little more heart than most。〃 

     〃Do you know anything particular about her?〃 

     〃She ruined Baron de G。〃 

     〃No more than that?〃 

     〃She was the mistress of the old Duke of 。 。 。〃 



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    〃Was she really his mistress?〃 

    〃So they say; at all events; he gave her a great deal of money。〃 

    The    general    outlines  were   always    the  same。   Nevertheless     I  was 

anxious to find out something about the relations between Marguerite and 

Armand。 Meeting one day a man who was constantly about with known 

women; I asked him: 〃Did you know Marguerite Gautier?〃 

    The answer was the usual: 〃Very well。〃 

    〃What sort of a girl was she?〃 

    〃A fine; good girl。 I was very sorry to hear of her death。〃 

    〃Had she not a lover called Armand Duval?〃 

    〃Tall and blond?〃 

    〃Yes。 

    〃It is quite true。〃 

    〃Who was this Armand?〃 

    〃A fellow who squandered on her the little money he had; and then had 

to leave her。 They say he was quite wild about it。〃 

    〃And she?〃 

    〃They always say she was very much in love with him; but as girls like 

that are in love。 It is no good to ask them for what they can not give。〃 

    〃What has become of Armand?〃 

    〃I don't know。 We knew him very little。 He was with Marguerite for 

five or six months in the country。 When she came back; he had gone。〃 

    〃And you have never seen him since?〃 

    〃Never。〃 

    I; too; had not seen Armand again。 I was beginning to ask myself if; 

when he had come to see me; the recent news of Marguerite's death had 

not exaggerated his former love; and consequently his sorrow; and I said to 

myself that perhaps he had already forgotten the dead woman; and along 

with her his promise to come and see me again。 This supposition would 

have seemed probable enough in most instances; but in Armand's despair 

there had been an accent of real sincerity; and; going from one extreme to 

another; I imagined that distress had brought on an illness; and that my not 

seeing him was explained by the fact that he was ill; perhaps dead。 

    I was interested in the young man in spite of myself。 Perhaps there was 



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some selfishness in this interest; perhaps I guessed at some pathetic love 

story   under   all   this   sorrow;   perhaps   my   desire   to   know   all   about   it   had 

much to do with the anxiety which Armand's silence caused me。 Since M。 

Duval did not return to see me; I decided to go and see him。 A pretext was 

not   difficult   to   find;   unluckily   I   did   not   know   his   address;   and   no   one 

among those whom I questioned could give it to me。 

     I   went   to   the   Rue   d'Antin;   perhaps   Marguerite's   porter   would   know 

where Armand lived。 There was a new porter; he knew as little about it as 

I。 I then asked in what cemetery Mlle。 Gautier had been buried。 It was the 

Montmartre   Cemetery。   It   was   now   the   month   of April;   the   weather   was 

fine; the graves were not likely to look as sad and desolate as they do in 

winter; in short; it was warm enough for the living to think a little of the 

dead; and pay them a visit。 I went to the cemetery; saying to myself: 
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